The happy part is like a radiant 3-8 year old child. When she is around I am bright eyed and energetic. This picture was something I made while she was "out" about all the things that she likes. The name of my boyfriend is blurred out, but that is who she likes spending time with. The happy part seems to be brought out by a lot of things, including caffeine, jungle gyms, animals, praise/attention, toys, movies with children, etc. I'm not sure what it is about caffeine that brings her out, maybe because it's like a treat? If I drink a soda, she comes out and starts bouncing off the walls.
The happy part is not always happy, but she is by far the most genuinely happy of all the parts I am aware of and she rarely feels negative emotions. This is largely due to the trio I explained in the previous post. They will usually step up to protect her if she starts to feel sad or unloved. I'll explain more about this in another post.
The happy part's biggest concern is being unloved or neglected. If she perceives any threat whatsoever she quickly disappears and other parts (usually the angry part) take over. I would equate this with how a very small child needs their parents to praise and love them unconditionally and if the picture they drew doesn't go on the refrigerator, they are crushed. Her issues usually are no more than hurt feelings, whereas the other parts have much deeper and darker pains.
I think she exists to ask for the attention, love, and praise that I never got as a child. My father was silent and almost entirely absent in my life and my mother was extremely critical and quick to chastise me over any little error. She was also volatile. I had no way of knowing what would make her mad and sometimes what bothered her contradicted things that had bothered her the month, week, or even day before.
I think the happy part was set aside with all the good parts of childhood. She's brave, affectionate, outgoing, and giggly, which were things I never was as a child.
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